Screw this

You know how parents always say stuff like, "I only want the best for you" and "This is important for your future" and "We've all been through it before". Screw that. SCREW THAT. Instead of just controlling your kids and trying to turn them into little clones of you, how about you let THEM decide. I didn't want to take ballet, i didn't want to take a swimming class, i didn't want to go into chourus. I sure as hell don't want to take BALLROOM dancing. At least, not right now. Sure, they may be "good ideas" that will "help my future" but did you ever stop to think that maybe i just want to have my summer to myself. i do not enjoy having my life planned out for me without my consent, or consultation. I am blossoming into my own life and need to make my own decisions, i need to find my interests on my own, i need you to stop shoving me into activitys that i don't want to participate in.

Most Awesomeist person in the whole WORLD!!!

My biffle gret is hilarious, how do we know? This magnificent piece of humor -

"So dude, did you get some last night?" "Yeah man, I sure did!" "I'm so jealous. Was it a good one or just a quickie?" "It was the best! Felt like it lasted all night!" "You lucky jerk. I haven't gotten any sleep for ages."

This reminds me some of why i love her so much. (I would say the other stuff but it would take to long <3 ya gret!)

Rebirth

I am a phoenix, rising from the ashes of my own destruction. I will spread these new wings and fly away. I will be reborn into something far more powerful than i previously was. That which was has been destroyed and there is no turning back. I will become my own strength, there is nothing that matters anymore. It is all collateral, and worthless. I will no longer try to become something i am not, i will break these chains and revel in their destruction. This is a darkness that cannot be fought, so i must instead embrace it. I will become the dark nightmare, the demon that must be faced. I have seen the lies, the whispers, the deceptions. I will shed all that has been placed on me, these worries will no longer be a part of me. I will escape it, and take the consequences in stride. This is a pain that reaches beyond mere discomfort, so i will no longer try to accept it. I will fight it and conqure it, i will give up on what others think and do only what i want. If this is what it takes so be it. Within death a prince awaits, a shinigami sitting in perfection, watching, waiting, and I will spread these wings and fly to him when the time comes. Until then watch the shadows, for within them i will lurk, waiting to destory you.

Oh Popularity

Unless you live under a rock, you know what facebook.com is, you've definitly heard of it, and probably have your own. Well facebook is usually a good way to find out how 'popular' someone is. You can look to see how many friends, pictures, videos, and wall posts a person has. Also when viewing the pictures another indication of how popular someone is, is how many pictures they have of themselves in swimwear, with other people, in poses that could be considered scandalous or skanky. I really don't understand what the mentality behind this is. Popular people just seem to have a subconcious drive to post oodles of pictures of themselves looking like whores. Also popular people have popular friends who can't deny the urge to comments on afore mentioned pictures with comments like "duh dat how we do shit now.lol" (I'm not kidding, that's a legit quote), and also the names of the albums containing these pictures are just as idiotic. This is an actual name of an album of pictures posted by a 'popular' person - "B.O.P. Bitches over players <3". If this is you, what the heck? You may think you're clever and intelligent, but no, that album name is just rediculous, that's all there is to it. Also, if any 'popular' people ever read this, you may say i'm just a hater. Sorry, no, i'm not a hater, i'm not jealous of you at all, i don't need makeup, swimsuits, shirtless guys, or preppy friends to feel like i'm beautiful. I'm fine with my sweatpants, personality, and natural beauty. Sure, i know there are popular people out there who actually have brains, but i have yet to encounter them. I'm stuck surrounded by empty, idiotic, irritating popular people, who have somehow managed to convince themselves that they perfect. And the thing that really sucks, is that even though they're total idiots, they still manage to get really good grades, and what's absolutly terrifying, is that they make up most of the student government. If someone with a brain tried to run they wouldn't get the seat, because the 'popular' people are backed by the idiots of the student body, which sadly is the mahority of the student body. If you're a popular person, or if you're a person with substance, feel free to comment. Seriously though, popular people are annoying, that's really all there is to it.

Random mind blurtage

these are thing that don't really fit into anything but i still want to share.

1 - i got pwned by a 13year old, in a unfun way

2 - when i cry i collect my tears in a plastic vial

3 - never underestimate the power of chocolate

4 - questionable content is an awesome web comic, as is xkcd

5 - i have the best friends ever, they accept my weirdness without question

6 - i need to go on a rant about originallity and being compared to other people

Poem

This is a poem that i wrote to express my feelings about a situation with a person. When i gave it to said person they felt like crap, and ended up needing to go cry in a bathroom because it made them more sad that they already were. so here goes....

You opened me from apathy
and hurt me from the start
you built me up and tore me down
i'm done, i've played my part

it was a dream, a simple dream
but now i have awoken
it was nice, for a time
but then you left me broken

you fucked up, and screwed yourself
for reasons i can't explain
you may have made the right choice
but god i hope you're in pain

you may be sad, or just damn angry
but promise that you'll stay sane
people have a tendancy
to get lost on memory lane

i can't explain how i feel
it's to damn complicated
but i can say, at the very least
that sadness is overrated

so please do try, to find yourself
to figure out who you are
it may be brutal, and hurt alot
but if you need me i won't be far

it's not that i hate you or even resent you
it's more that i got screwed over
i just wanted someone to love
not a lying, cowardly, poser

i really do like you, and want to stay friends
but you're the one who has to decide
i've worked out my feelings, i know who i am
but in your heart you let conflict reside

i have a feeling that inevitably
this will happen again and again
unless you can come to terms with yourself
and a new life begin

that's really all that i feel i should say
explaining more i don't think would matter
just please don't give up, and abandom yourself
and end up mad as a hatter


yeah, so that's it. the last line is kind of a reference to alice in wonderland, it's both a jab and a reference to the person this poem was written for. jab because we saw the movie together, reference because he keeps on getting compared to the hatter.

Hey, gues how typical i am!

VERY!!! Yay for being typical, and like oh so many other teen bloggers, not updating... in a really long time...

RAHHHRRRR

Friends are so stupid!!!! They think that honesty is a lie, and that lies are honesty. Also they think they are so mature in telling others to "grow up", well i'm sorry, i disagree, i'm only saying something because i care, and i think you need to grow up and stop being such a turd.

Oh so typical sayings.

Just so you know (dwi) or (DWI) are equivalent to "Deal With It", i just took the first letter of each word and put then in parenthesis, aren't i clever.

We have probably all heard these words at some point, and if you haven't heard them, you will. And it will suck. It will annoy you and make you want to rip your hair out. Yesterday, both of these things were said to me, this is not verbatim it is a generality (dwi) -

1 - "All teenagers go through this"

2 - "It's Complicated"

As far as #1, mom, dad, i KNOW that all teenagers do this, it is not necessary to tell me, trust me, i KNOW. For clarification, i was asking for more independance (very over-bearing parents), and was told that this is something all teenagers go through and that they will still control every aspect of my life because that's what parents do. (i will paste the letter thingy i wrote them at the bottom of the post)
Anyway, everything i wrote in my letter thing, i believe to be true. their nagging is becoming detrimental to my schooling. (yes i get the irony that i am posting a blog, dwi) they are being insufferable. And by telling me this is a "stage that all teenagers go through" they succesfully annoyed the heck out of me. I realize they are parents and that they feel it is there "duty" to nag, i get it, i really do, but they need to lighten up. Also, i do not want to be told that "ALL" teenagers go throught this, they don't! Just try to see my point, gosh... =P

Ok, as far as #2. another unfortunate inevitable happening. since yesterday the solution has been solved, but the phrase is still annoying. "it's complicated". Have you ever had a friend who you've known for many years, but then they start to feel attraction towards another individual (for those of you who don't understand what i'm saying - when your old friend gets a crush). Anyway, you suddenly find that your friend tells their crush everything but then when you want to know something your friends won't tell you, but then when you ask them why they won't tell a friend they've known for years something that they are telling a new crush, they will reply with the phrase "it's complicated". i have most often found that in all truth, it is NOT complicated and will really only take at most an hour to fully explain. Usually it's only about 5 minutes. So if you don't want to tell someone something that you have told someone else, don't say "it's complicated", say you don't want to tell, then don't mention you've told someone else who you've known for a shorter period of time. It will prevent your old friends from becoming ticked off with you or abandoning you.




Here's the letter thingy: (btw, it is random, i know, dwi)
"I want you to read this, with an open mind. I want you to listen to what I am trying to say without getting mad. I want you to understand how I feel.
I am frustrated and tired with the overbearing treatment I am dealing with; it is becoming highly detrimental to my mental stability and our relationship. You may think it is your duty to help me make decisions, and to tell me how to live my life, I wish to tell you that I believe that that time has passed. I am feeling overly pressured by the constant oppression that you force on me. I really do understand and appreciate all the help that you give me, but I believe that the time has come to let me have a go at making my own decisions. For the last few years, my grades in school have not been the best. This is by my fault, and I understand that, but I believe that your concern for my future has become so great that it is starting to become a large portion of why I am struggling. I hate it when I let you down, it tears me up inside, because I know in my heart that you only want the best for me. I want to do better but it requires a compromise, I propose that the subject of my schooling becomes a matter that concerns only me, and that if I need to stay up at night to complete an assignment, that I am allowed to do so without parental input or supervision. I am feeling smothered in that I have so very little control over my decisions, I merely desire the chance to forge my own way in the world. I strongly believe that if I were to be allowed to try making my own decisions that I would do far better in our relationship and my lifestyle and schooling. You may believe that without your guidance I would dig myself into a hole, but I have found that on the days that I am home alone with no parental influence on my actions, I get far more accomplished than when I am being constantly asked about the completion level of my work. It is frustrating to have no control over how I live and I hope that you can understand that I only want to have a chance. If I find that I am doing worse I will abandon my pride and come to you to ask for guidance, but I desire the chance to do something by my own power for once. Do not think that I wish for you to leave me totally independent, I do depend on your input, but I have become so strained by your expectations for school that your guidance has become counter-productive and detrimental. "

It's stupid, i know, dwi, i don't care if you don't like it, i do. XP

Hello,

hello self, i say self because i know i am the only one bored enough to both read, and write this. First lemme clarify a few things, i am a typical teenager, think MLIA meets FML, I'm somewhere in the middle, just like most other people my age. I am sixteen, and female, if that instantly makes someone back off, fine, i don't care. they can assume this is just another blog about how "amazing" twilight is and how "awesome" there boyfriend is. Sorry, but i do not think twilight is "awesome" and i do not have a boyfriend. Deal with it, i have at least. Well crap, i see i have slipped into writing as thought I'm writing to someone. Well, i guess that's true, i'm writing to myself as though i am a person who does not know me... Whatever. To those who breathed a sigh of relief when they found out i'm not a stereotypical boyfriend obsessed girl, do not relax just yet, i may not be "stereotypical", but i am indeed typical. Therefore, this blog will be about whatever i want it to be, that could very well end up being boys. If u don't like it, don't bash it, just leave. Remember, this is for me, not you, i do not care what you think. (well, i do but since i will pretend that i don't know you i may therefore pretend u have no effect on my life and feel no shame in expressing my thoughts)